Despite the fact that I'm (most likely) just fine as far as preparation goes, I can help but feel like I'm slipping because of the all the effort I put in in years past. During the first few years, I was there early, printing, prepping, and reviewing, only to still feel stressed at the last minute. As time has gone on, I've had less need to get ready early..but still feel like that super-early prep was needed. The result: sitting here at home, almost completely prepared, but feeling lazy.
But really, it's a feeling that'll trail me all year, even as the students walk down the ramp for graduation in nine months. Did I prepare for everything? Is something missing? Am I already behind...or actually just right on schedule?