As you've probably already guessed...it didn't work. I spent weeks forcing myself to just sit and think...and while I came up with a few good lines for some of the faculty, I never wrote anything, never asked for help in putting a PowerPoint together, never asked someone if I could borrow the camera and what to do with the pictures afterwards, and never even came up with a solid list of "personnel" to introduce. My little talk dwindled from "something with a PowerPoint and pictures" to "just me to talking" to "...I have no idea what I'm saying". By the time the new student orientation had arrived, I had nothing. While my teacher was understandably disappointed in me (and I couldn't blame her for that), I felt a huge sense of relief when she told me I could skip the event and she'd have someone else fill in the gaps. While I don't consider myself lazy or apathetic, this was one of those rare moments where I saw the dangers of getting stuck in your own head.
Today, I sat in meetings all day as we listened to and discussed ideas about the upcoming "curriculum rewrite". While there was definitely some healthy discussion, I feel we're approaching a point similar to my seventh grade dilemma. Eventually, we're going to have to stop trying to "think it perfect" and actually start writing things down and filling out the curriculum templates. It's not a process I'm relishing (while the results will be great, the process will be tedious), but the more we talk about "one day all of us sitting down and just putting it all out there to have total vertical alignment", the more I'm reminded of my problem fifteen years ago. It's not that anyone in the room is lazy, but we're getting stuck in theory...and it's very hard to edit a blank page.